A working mom’s crazy adventures

Since I have been pregnant I feel like I am on an emotional roller coaster that I just can’t seem to get off.  With the blink of an eye or the slightest odd look, I am questioning everything.  I laugh, I cry, I get depressed.

I have always been a very confident person and didn’t let things bother me too much, but again, much like when I lost my father a few months ago, I am again feeling insecure and unsure of myself.  I am sensitive to the way that my friends react to me and how Chiqui is with me.  (Perhaps this isn’t related to the pregnancy, maybe I’m still grieving?)

I’m constantly wondering why I am not connecting with my friends, why we are on totally different pages and why I just can’t seem to relate to anyone right now.  It is a really weird spot for me to be in.

On top of all of that, I recently had a revelation about some of the things in my fathers house.  I had never really cared if anyone took anything that was his because, it wasn’t him and wasn’t going to bring him back.  But this was before I realized that many of the pictures of my father had been taken.

It frustrates me, that out of all the items in the house that someone would think that it was ok to take his pictures!  I don’t care how they are related to him, his photo’s are my children’s legacy.  It is their linage and it would have been wonderful to have pictures to tell with my stories of him.

In addition to that, they don’t even know the stories that go with those pictures.  They didn’t sit and listen to my father talk for hours about the pictures, where he was and what was going on at the time.  And if he did share that information I can tell you first hand that they didn’t listen nor retain the stories, and I have.

On a happier note (we are on our way up on the emotional roller coaster) my ultrasound is scheduled for July 8th.  I am so excited to see the baby and how he/she is doing.  I hope that the baby is cooperative and gives us a peek to see if he is a he or if she is a she :-)  I also want to make sure that we have all the proper anatomy, as a healthy baby is the most important at this point.

Bella and Joey are doing well.  Bella just finished out Ballet with a wonderful recital  and Joey finished off the school  year with straight A’s!!!  Go kids.

Bella starts a new preschool next week, she is both excited and sad to leave her current daycare and friends.

By the way did I ever mention that I registered to be an organ donor?   Well I did.  After, following the amazing story on cfhusband.blogspot.com I felt it was a really wonderful thing to do. Besides after I pass away I won’t need those parts any way.  And I am sure my kids wont want to collect them, it would be the one and only thing I will not leave to them, unless they can use them to better their health LOL

Talk about off topic, have you noticed the roller coaster here????
Enough for now, will post more as I get around to it.

Take care.

PS: As Jenn from http://justchickenfeed.com/ would say “Verbal Comments Are Now Closed”

I guess I got lost in the midst of life. It has been a whirlwind month and I didn’t realize it had been more than a month since I last posted. Lets see what have we missed. here???? Bella turned 4 and well it was a 3 1/2 week celebration, between going out to dinner, presents coming in the mail (almost daily) and then the big shin dig of a party, we had for her at Victoria Fashion Stables.

It was a “Pony” party, though all the small kids insisted on riding the horse instead of the pony. LOL go figure. It was nice and hot that day and everyone had a GREAT time.

Following the bash there were three exciting new babies born.  Christopher on April 17th, Natalie on April 25 and Mercutio born May 5.  How very exciting.  The best part is that I will get to hold all but one.  And they all are BEAUTIFUL HEALTHY BABIES!!!

Then tonight we were lucky enough to go Joey’s opening night of “Once upon a time”.  He and the rest of the cast did an awesome job!!!! We were so proud!!!! But of course my video recorder decided to die, and I didn’t bring a camera, so you will have to wait for those pictures. Thank goodness my neighbor had his camera and was more than happy to snap a million photos of our kids!!!  You have to love GREAT neighbors.  And we are blessed with many wonderful neighbors.

In fact, there are so many of us that get along really well on this street that we close it down on the 4th of July and have a huge block party,  complete with Jumpy house, kiddie pools and WAY TOO MUCH FOOD. Not to mention we have the best view of the fire works from our front lawn.  It is very cool.

Finally, our little kumquat is almost 11 weeks in utero and seems to be doing well.  I on the other hand, have been very nauseous!!!!! This morning Bella pointed out some snails crossing the sidewalk and I nearly lost my breakfast. I don’t think I have ever gagged that hard in my life. Thankfully it is only nausea and not vomiting.

Well it is late and as usual I am way too tired, so I will end for now, but will be back. (A lot sooner than last time LOL).

So we thought that I was 8 weeks along due to my last period, but of course I am not normal so of course I’m not 8 weeks.  As of Monday I was measuring 5 weeks and was panicked because I thought I was 8 and was having some spotting.  The GREAT news was that they were able to find a heart beat even though I only have a yolk sac, so crisis averted for now.

We are all very excited though.  Joey said he was moving in with his mom and Bella the crack up that she is said “I’m so moving in with Grandma” LOL she is so funny.  Both kids were joking of course, and Bella is over joyed.  She was so excited that she got to go to the sonogram, she skipped all the way into the room and was anxious to see the baby.  Unfortunately, it was only a blob for now with “fireworks” all around (the blood flow, but that is what she called it), which wasn’t all that exciting for her.

On the way home she asked if she could listen to my belly.  So I let her, when she was done she said “Well it’s official, it’s a girl”  How this kid knows the word official is beyond me, but none the less she did LOL.  Now I can hardly wait to find out what it is.

Joey is also excited, he doesn’t like the boy name that we picked out, but he will adjust.  We keep picking on him, telling him that he gets to get up in the middle of the night to take care of the baby LOL (he keeps freaking out like we really would, which is funny because if he thought about it, he would realize that he doesn’t have a boob so he isn’t going to be the one getting up with the baby.)

Any who, thank you for the comments (All two of you) LOL I can’t wait to share more details.

That is what I wish for my baby to be. Ten fingers, ten toes, beautiful eyes and a button nose.

We can hardly wait to meet the baby to be.,

I love my new siggy, it was made by Monique

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Why on Earth does it have to be so hard to find a good preschool that has after care?  I have been searching and searching for a good preschool and can not seem to find a place that can accommodate the fact that I am not fortunate enough to stay home with my kids.

I have found some that have after care, but serve the kids all frozen or canned food and I’m sorry, but I just can not agree to feed my kid all frozen and canned food when I have worked so hard to feed her all organic fresh fruit and veggies.  She is a GREAT eater and I don’t want to compromise that now.

And why oh why do some preschools want a $50-$100 non refundable check and a picture of your child?  What if my child is not pretty enough or the right race you wont except her?  I dunno perhaps it is me, maybe that isn’t that odd, but it sure seems to be.

So come one come all and make your recommendations.  You can email them to me or post them in the comments section.

So I never realized many of the things I said on a rather regular basis, until I had Bella.  Then I realized I had; road rage, a vocabulary that could make a sailor proud and lots of other rather quirky phrases.   However, my conversation with her the other night was too much.

For the last week, she has been rather defiant about going to bed when her father or I would tell her it is time to go.  And at  the ripe age of four she is rather clever in her smoke screens to avoid going to sleep, but the other night was just too much.

She tried every trick in the book and when she realized that we were not falling for any of them, she was upset and proceeded to scream and cry.  So I pulled out the old “Super Nanny” methods and came down on her level to explain that her behavior was not acceptable and that she would be going to bed, yada yada yada.  To which she replied “I don’t want to hear it”, “I’m sorry” I said, “but sometimes we don’t always get what we want”.  “Yes I do, I do get what I want and if you aren’t going to tell me that I can stay up and have something to eat, then I don’t want to hear it”.

How do you not fall on the floor and laugh?????  Talk about a taste of my own medicine vocabulary.

Needless to say she went to bed shortly there after and didn’t get anything to eat.

God I love that child, even if she does make me want to laugh and pull my hair out at the same time.

Me: Bella this is the preschool that is by mommy’s work, lets check this one out.

Bella (with a light bulb on over her head): Yeah, then I can talk to all your friends.

Me: uh no

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Bella while drinking bioK these are the good bugs mom! (Yep I feed my kids live bugs LOL)

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Me: Do you want to tell me a story and I will put it on my webpage?

Bella:Umm OK, I have a good one! It is about a little girl eating fruit. Let me tell you.

A little girl was eating fruit and then a horse ate her fruit. She was so mad, but the horse did not stop eating it and that was why she was mad. She just sat there and watched the horse she didn’t even do anything. And she had a choice, so she went out of the garden and got more fruit and then she nowed how to be a good friend. Nobody actual thinks of her. The end.

Me: What does “nobody actual thinks of her” mean?

Bella: It means that no one thinks of her, she has to think for herself.

Me: Oh ok. What is the name of your story?

Bella: A girl named Rainbow.

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I swear my daughter is the funniest ever. We were driving the other day and while stopped at the light she screams ” MOM I see Duncan Donuts”. “Where” I reply (knowing that there isn’t one anyone near here as we are not in MA where they are on every corner). “In the reflection of the gas station look over there”. At this point, I completely forgot that we were looking for Duncan Donuts because I was schocked that she knew the word reflection. Her vocabulary shocks me everyday. By the way the reflection was Jack in the Box LOL LOL.

So a week or so ago, I found out about a place called Jacqueline’s High Tea
intrigued by it’s potential for a GREAT time with my daughter we embarked on our great journey despite the torrential rains we had to endure. Both Bella and her friend JT got all dolled up in their princess dresses and upon our arrival the two girls were crowned with tiara’s and pearl necklaces.

The tables were set with beautiful cloth napkins that had rose napkin holders, which the girls decided to wear as bracelets.(Talk about proper table manners! I’m going to be “proper” mother of the year for sure! )

So we ordered our mini tea sandwiches and our pots of tea urr well hot chocolate for the girls and alas a tea party was had.  The girls loved it, every blue haired lady that passed by our table couldn’t help but GUSH over the girls and how cute they were, all done up and drinking out of big ole tea cups.  (And believe me, this place was FULL of blue haired ladies so they were inundated with attention. And they loved every second of it).

I would recommend this place to anyone who has a little girl that loves to dress up.  My only word of caution would be that if you order the more expensive of the two meals and you have little girls with you make sure that you tell your waitress that you expect to receive the two tierd plate.  I was very dissapointed to pay for the more expensive meal (15.95 each) for a two-tierd plate, only to receive a single plate.  However, I must note that the girls didn’t even notice, despite the fact that I had talked up the plate, so I didn’t make a big deal of it.

Huston I think I am in trouble, my dauther poses on her own.