A working mom’s crazy adventures

LMAO what a funny freaking episode! Who in their right mind would EVER buy a book written by Simon and Alex LOL On parenting no less. LMAO for the love of god they met on the internet for a one night stand I think that would be a better book read!!!!! HA too funny!

I just LOVE Jill “Jill Zarin”! She is hilarious. But I think her husband is GAY! HA And Bethany she is my other FAV!

And Kelly I hate that girl, I wish she wasn’t on the show she! She is a waist of time and her tears are useless!

Now while I am totally excited about RHWof NJ I hope they bring back the OC, they are my FAV plus I really want to see how Gretchen is doing.  Did she really love Jeff? How hard was it after he died? Will she get to be on the show now that she is penniless? Or is she not did he change his will and short change his kids?

And on a totally different note, why do I have a hang over ????? I just drank a few hours ago WTF. I guess I will have to stick to the good tequila not happy hour tequila. Bleh.

I am excited to announce that I am finally going back to visit my family back east!  I have not been back since my father’s funeral and that was a year and 1/2 ago!

I can hardly wait to see my family, but I am also nervous because I know it is going to be very difficult.  I am not sure what I will do with all my time, (you know aside from taking care of both girls on my own YIKES).

I am so used to being able to  sit up until the wee hours of the morning chatting with my dad or popping into Charlie’s to have some chicken strips and smell the fried clams and have my dad showing me one thing or 12 others on his computer in the kitchen. Perhaps we can just drive by Charlie’s and pretend his is busy working… that wouldn’t be too far fetched.

Even Bella has mentioned that “it is going to be weird not to see grandpa”. Ah my sweet girl, she misses him so much! They have such a special connection, she sees him everywhere and it is so real to her when she sees a man that looks like him.  I can not even explain the connection they have, it is really something out of this world!

On a positive note, I can hardly wait to put my feet in the sand and listen to the ocean softly lapping at the shore, while my skin sizzles into the latest shade of RED! I can almost smell the sweet trees in the hot humid air, the beach ahh home, only not.

I hope Keira likes the beach as much as her sister and I do! And I hope she does well on a 6 hour red eye flight!

South Shore here we come!

Ahh Brant Rock a view from the sea wall at Charlie's

Today I am going to let go!

I am going to let go of peoples unrealistic expectations of me.

I am going to let go of my own unrealistic expectations of myself.

I am going to let go of this anxiety that is trying to dictate my life.

Whew, now that I got that over with someone hand me my postpartum depression pills!  Yes I am still taking them, yes this roller coaster continues! But I am ready to get off.